It’s All About God’s Timing
I just gotta take this moment to give God the glory for what He is doing in my life right n ow. Two weeks ago, my daughter went with me to minister the Word of God at “Come To, Jesus Ministry,” in Bridgeport Connecticut. This is a new fellowship for both of us, and the first time of many visits we will have had the privilege to make.
Pastor Yvonne surprised both of us when she called my daughter Dawn. who is also a Minister, to pray for two female members in her Ministry. My daughter ministered a prophetic word of release to both ladies. They were having some personal problems which caused them to undergo some inner struggles which were holding them both hostage to false feelings of insecurity. It was amazing to me to watch their countenance change from tension to glowing in a calm and peaceful state. We forget that leaders have struggles with our identity self -worth and value too.
Before I ministered the Word of God Pastor Yvonne ministered to me. She told me things that only God knew, and had spoken to me at different times in my life. Everything she said to me was the truth. All she said to me, The Lord had already told me. I felt so vulnerable and so exposed because for years, I pondered all these things in my heart. I not only had not shared these things with my own Pastor, I had never shared them with other Pastors I served under.
I knew after this I would no longer be able to hide that God had called me deeper into Ministry. For years I kept these things hidden. I never even felt to share them with the pastor who ordained me. Truth is, I was looking for him to recognize the call; but even if he saw them, he never acknowledged it.
Sometimes, in this walk it is best to keep those things God gives us to ourselves. Joseph was a Dreamer; God dealt with him in visions and dreams and in his excitement to share his joy, he was rejected, disliked, shunned, and even hated by his own brothers. I learned the hard way that everything God shows us we are not at liberty to share.
Sometimes, there are things God shares with us we simply must guard with our very lives. There were people I befriended along the way, that I told precious things that He told me. I thought these people were my friends. After all, they were in Ministry too, so I felt safe. It was not long before they let me down,
One female Minister I valued as a mentor and loyal friend, betrayed my trust and failed to keep the vow she made to hold this information in confidentiality. I realized that even though people are in Ministry, we are all human beings with faults, and we all function on different levels. We look up to people in positions and we become blinded by our loyalty to them based on the power they have. Problem is we fail to discern who they really are.
The lesson was painful, and it did severe damage to our relationship, but in time I overcame it. I realize people in Ministry are no different than those we minister to. We are on different levels of understanding and maturity. We must not allow our loyalty to block our vision and hinder us from making sound judgements about anyone.
After that painful season passed, I decided to keep the things that God said to me to myself. In His own time, He will do just what He said; I decided to wait on Him. I expected the many pastors I served under to see the anointing on my life; I was waiting for them to acknowledge what my destiny is and speak into my life; but they never did.
So here I was this, August 25th, 2019 Sunday morning and like Deborah, Pastor Yvonne, not Pastor Wilson, or Pastor Owens, Bishop Mc-Daniels or even Pastor Hans, she is speaking in my life. Funny thing is I have known all these pastors for a lifetime, and I met Pastor Yvonne in February of this year at one of my annual Valentine’s Day luncheons. My goddaughter invited her and the whole church to the luncheon and this was how we met. The pastor and I did not interact with each other during the luncheon, but I could feel her presence no matter where I was in the room.
At the end of the affair we greeted one another, and, in my spirit, I knew this would not be the last time we would meet. In-fact, she said something in reference to that as she was going out the door. A few weeks later my goddaughter called me to say Pastor Yvonne wanted me to come bless the Church with a Word, and she would call me.
That phone call did not take place until 6 months later; it arrived in God’s time. I was somewhat anxious during the waiting period, because I already had the message I was to deliver to the Church. I had to relax and wait; it was going to happen. We cannot rush God; we just have to, wait. Even though we are called we must wait for His timing.
There are things we must see as experiences we must go through to be properly prepared. The struggles and trials we face are valuable lessons we won’t find in books composed from any human mind. These experiences will teach us patience, temperance, and mature our faith in God. The lessons we learn will become chapters of the volumes of great messages from our live for someone else to read. I had to learn this for myself about God; anything God promised us God Himself will release His Divine Plan to us in His Time, for our Edification, but for His Glory, and His Purpose.
I am preparing myself to hear from the Lord so I am being still so I can hear His voice, If I never trusted Him as Lord before, I know for certain that now is the time.
Yes, I am on the mountain top and truly I am no ways ready or willing to come down. I know Pastoring is not going to be easy, but for right now, I want to enjoy every ounce of the honeymoon; for as long as I can.
I know, I’m going to have to keep some tissues in my bag, or wear something with pockets. This is going to be a joyful but, tearful season in my life. It’s God’s Timing for my life.
